Half Way There

Week 26 (Half Year Mark!)

September 11th - 17th: Half Way There!

In celebration of our 6 months of making it this far! I will make this a writer’s choice!!! Have fun with it!!!

I'm only keeping track of the weeks. I know 26 is 1/2 of 52. Still, either way, I cannot believe I started

this group 6 months ago. I would like to get some more traffic, but it's good anyway.

I didn't even finish writing this!

I had meant to last week, but with the impending storm heading our way, and the Blogophilia group

coming back to life...Who knows what the universe has in store for me!

I know that I need projects to keep me busy!

I'm 45 now, and my mental health is not getting any better.

Everyone that knows me knows that I wanted to have another child. So I will always be in mourning over

that! No matter how old I get.

Some days are harder to get out of bed than others.

I was hoping at this point, I would have been wealthy in the money department so I could do things

like go to a clinic, and have a child that way. Or get myself into a bigger house.

You're supposed to be richer in money as you get older because you no longer have any children to

support!

Instead, I'm struggling more than I ever did when I did have a kid!

I'm waiting for Andy's disability to kick in.

In the meantime, we're going broke because he wants to buy his tobacco, and MJ and stuff.

That stuff is costly.

If I take 20 dollars out, I could make that last me all week. His would be gone in 5 minutes.

And I swear he does this inadvertently deliberately because he knows I want to have another child,

and he's subconsciously sabotaging us financially!

I know I overthink these things.

I can't help it! I'm only human!!!

We'll see where the next 6 months will take me.

Diana

Speaking Nonsense

Posted by Dia J West

Saturday, 9.24.22

I tend to speak nonsense. And I have a tendency to be all over the place, speaking wise, when I’m upset.

Normally I’m good at hiding my sadness, but I can’t help myself this time around!

I tried to create a writing group. I started feeling inspired after I signed up for a creative writing class. But I needed time to get my stuff in order.

I started it sometime in March. It seemed evident that the writing group I was in wasn’t coming back.

Well, they announced they’re back. And I’ve tried countless times to promote my group from within. But people act like I don’t exist.

I only had two people posting anyway.

I know when to give up. I’ll cry and grieve about it. But I’m sure I’ll be fine!

It just hurts.

I am human. And I have feelings.

Diana

September 24, 2022

Always Working

Week 25

September 4th - 10th: Always Working

Subtopic 1: Mention something you do at work

Subtopic 2: Use a quote from the movie Office Space

"The thing is, Bob, it's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care."

--Peter Gibbons (Office Space) 

It seems I'm always at my computer, answering phones, relieving security,

or something of the sort at my job.

I have thought about this quiet quitting thing. Because it's not that I'm lazy, It's

that I just don't care. Well, that's not entirely true.

I really can't care.

Earlier this week, I had something that bothered my coworker. And in return,

it bothered me. I'm affected by others, and I care about their feelings.

So, someone at work pointed out to me that some things are just out of my control.

And they're right!

I'm normally the first person to say it's none of my business!

Actually, my saying is: Not my circus; not my monkeys; not my karma; not my

business!

It just helps me with the unnecessary.

It's weird too, because at one point, I was willing to lay down and die for my job.

And then an opportunity presented itself for a possible promotion! Well!

When I got passed up for it (They really didn't give anyone a chance to apply for the

position as the HR director had her friend in mind...Talk about nepotism or favoritism.

Whatever you call it). I decided that I no longer want to work the way that I am.

I also noticed that it was a bad time for me to make that decision as Andy

(my husband) was forced into retirement.

We are waiting for his disability. But as soon as it does, I will step down.

I would like to go to college for my bachelor's degree.

Eh, We'll see!!!

Thanks for reading my rant!

Diana

Call Me

Call Me

Blowing in the wind

The dust that swirls around

With a broken heart

Smooshed into the ground

If I told you to call me

Would you?

In a painting of still life

Forever blue

Diana Jillian 9.15.2015 Tuesday

1.24

 

Week 24

August 28th - September 3rd: The World’s a Skyscraper

Subtopic 1: Mention Frankenstein in your blog
Subtopic 2: Incorporate a song lyric about monsters
*I blanked. I picked Metallica’s Some Kind Of Monster.

Are we the people
(Living like a Frankenstein)
Some kind of monster?
The World’s a big skyscraper
We need to keep it simple